Vodka: The Not So Perfect Vulnerability Serum

After each apology, I could feel my heart sinking deeper and deeper into my chest as I excused my emotions and threw my own feelings under the bus. I was so scared to be vulnerable and speak up for my wanting more time spent together, wanting to talk more, wanting to connect more, because I was terrified my requests would be rejected. And so I drank, and I cried, and I communicated in a blurred and foggy state and continued to make excuses for my vulnerability when I did show it. Eventually I got tired of this pattern though. I grew weary from not speaking my truth and my frustration at the lack of love in my life grew too. This lead me to make the best decision of my life. Read More